Cody ~ 3 Months

Yes Cody started daycare, yes I started work and yes I completly broke down in the parking lot of the daycare. Nothing can put into words the feeling of leaving your 12 week old baby in the hands of strangers. We are 100% sure of the daycare provider we choose, but to actually hand your child over to a women you just met a few weeks earlier is heartbreaking.... Everyday has gotten better and the only thing that gets me through the day is knowning when I walk through the door Cody is here, waiting for me with the most incredible toothless smile.

It's amazing how in just a few short weeks he has changed so much. He smiles and laughs and is holding his head up on his own. We play games (made up by me of course) sing songs and he loves tummy time now. He can hold himself up on his chunky man forearms for extended periods of time and is standing with us just holding his hands. He's amazing and I look forward to everyday.

Cody has offically outgrown his 3 month cloths, he is in 6 months now. Its bittersweet, I so look forward to all the fun little things that are happening and are going to happen in the future, but on the other hand putting his stuff away makes me realize my little muffin is growing up. It makes me happy and sad all at the same time:)

As for me. I am starting to feel like myself again. Cody still isn't sleeping through the night. Some nights hes up just once (loves those) and others its still every 3 hours. With the growth spurt he just went through I am hoping he is getting adjusted and things will start to happen. I'm on my very strict 2 week no carb phase of my diet and have been to the gym a couple of times this week. Hopefully my metabolism is starting up again and the remaining weight will come off steadily. I'll keep you posted.....

Keys Baby ~ 12 Weeks

Our first family vacation was fun and relaxing. We were invited to join Amber's yearly family's trip. They rented a 10 bedroom house directly on the ocean in Islamorado (the middle keys). It was fantastic. Everybody was so fun and nice. We would hang around the pool (of course cody and I were in the shade) and during Cody's naps I would get some sun and pool time. A few days we took Cody into town for lunch and shopping and the other days Daddy spent fishing and lobstering. I even got to go one day while Molly watched Cody for us. It was a nice way to end the final week of my maturnity leave.....

Next Monday is Cody's first day at daycare(Ugh). We went this past Monday to register him and Craig was able to get the tour. I feel very comfortable there, but no comfort level is going to prepare me for leaving my 12 week old son in the care of strangers. It's going to be just awful. I actually don't start work til the wednesday after. I did this so I don't have to go back to work the same day I leave him off. I will probably go to the gym do a few errands and pick him after lunch. I'm going to miss little monkey so much.

I'm not so sure how I feel about going back to work. Part of me wishes I could stay home with Cody and the other part of me knows that I only work well with structure and plans and staying home I definetly don't have any structure. I also know that infants/children usually thrive in environments were they are ingrated with other chrildren. I know this is the best thing for my child, it just plain scares me.....